Tonight

     Tonight has made me realise how much my life means to me. One of my house-mates boyfriends had to be rushed to hospital this morning at around 3am, due to intense pain in his leg, due to something cracking. Doesn't sound that bad? We found out about a fortnight ago that he has cancer. It's treatable, but extremely upsetting nonetheless.
     I am currently writing this, around 10 minutes after the ambulance has left, partly due to the cortisol levels in me sky rocketing, hence I am extremely awake, and partly due to me wanting to write about it.
     I am one of those people who have serious problems coping with these sorts of situations. Involvement in the situation always makes me feel better, maybe due to my nature to strive to be a helpful person, especially in times of sheer horror for everyone involved. Whatever it is, its not until I am back on my own again that things really dawn on me, and I start crying for that person and those directly affected, but also re-evaluate my own life.
   I'm not going to give you a sad sob story, but to cut a long story short, I have had a history of being unable to cope with my own emotions. Such situations such as these show me how much of a breeze my life in general has actually been.
   Another thing I want to put out there is how utterly amazing medical staff are. I saw tonight 4 paramedics tackle a situation with ease, yes, they probably have many years of experience, but I know that no matter how much experience I had at doing something like that, whether it be paramedic, doctor, surgeon, nurse....anything where someone's life could potentially be in my hands, I couldn't do the job, and still maintain a healthy mentality.
     I wouldn't say that I am a person who particularly complains about things that happen in my life, but I know a lot of people out there who would complain for ludicrous amounts of time, for something so insignificant as to who hasn't done their washing up.
   I think that there is a lot of people out there who need to be fully exposed to other people's lives, those who do not have the luxuries of health, or wealth, or basically, have no real life whatsoever. Yes, we all know that there are millions of starving African children out there, but I think that with the majority of the human race, unless they see it face to face, many people will never know the true horrors that some people live.